Wanting to be a Rose

Today at church i recieved a note from a lady at church regarding the boy troubles i have been dealing with the lately. Here is what it said:

(on the front where it was folded)

God gives the best to those who leave the choice with him.

(on the inside)

Ellen,

You are God's beautiful precious rosebud. You were created to be a helpmate to one very lucky man- His precious rose. Don't give your petals away- He is worth waiting for. I remember vividly my struggles.

See you tuesday,

You are in my prayers,

T. B.

• live with no regrets so that God can bless you even more abundantly beyond what you could ask or think.


• Are you being faithful to your husband now?

When I finished reading it I was like WOW. I was speechless. This was something I really needed to hear. It really got me thinking: am I giving my rosepetals away?Am I being faithful to my future husband? When i started really thinking about it I realized that I have been giving some of my petals away. I have worn my heart on a sleeve for so long letting guys take a piece or so from me. Those pieces will never come back unfortunately. I have realized I need to not wear my heart on my sleeve, so I won't give my "petals" away so freely. I want my future husband to have me as a full rose and not just pieces of one.

I interpret being faithful to my future husband staying totally pure until marriage. Physically I have been 95% faithful. because i have kissed a few guys. Mentally though i haven't been even 95% faithful and pure. BUT i know that God can help me purify my mind and actions so that I will stay pure for my future husband.

So to sum up the rest of my thoughts I want to make sure I don't just settle on some guy. I want to wait on the guy God has for me. I know God will bless me with someone who will be absolutely amazing. After knowing some of the totally awesome guys i have been blessed to call friends in the past year I can't wait to see who God has for me someday! And even when i feel like that it wont happen i remember the verse Jeremiah 29:11 which states:

"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord," plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future."

So to say the least God is amazing and full and total control of my life. I look forward to the days ahead as God coninues to put me closer and closer to my future husband and some day my beautiful ending where i will spend enternity with God!!!