Things have been going so well for until yesterday... As of yesterday my best friend Joel, who lives 11 hours away, and I now basically have 0 contact with eachother for who knows how long... So no phone calls and no chatting on the computer and obviously we live too far away to hang out. I love him so much! He is my bestest friend. I tell him basically everything. Even though he lives so far away he is always there for me. When I need someone to just cry and complain to he is always there to just listen and cheer me up. I don't know what I would do without him, but now I guess I have to find that out... I'm trying to just trust God, but i keep finding myself asking God "why?". Why is this happening? Why did you take him from me? What are you trying to show me? As I cried out to God, God just began reminding me to trust him and that all will be well. Through all this my favorite verse keeps popping up.
"For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord. Plans to prosper you
and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future." -Jeremiah 29:11-
As much as all this hurts I know God will get me through this. He always does, and I know God doesn't make mistakes. I know someday I will look back and understand "why?" this has happend. I just wish i didn't have to wait to know "why?". I am also reminded of the song "Beauty From Pain" by Superchick the chorus goes:
"After all this has passed,
I still will remain,
After all I've cried my last,
There will be beauty from pain,
Though it won't be today,
Someday I'll hope again,
And there will be beauty from pain,
You will bring beauty from my pain."
It's such a comfort to know that God is here and with me through everything even when things get so incredibly tough. And God always brings as the song says "beauty from pain". So as I continue to try and just get through this I know I am not alone which makes its so much easier.
