God has changed me so much in the past month! It all started January 18th with a guy. He and I had been "talking" for about a month, and I was falling hard for him. He and I had dated before, but he was different then. He was not a good guy at all, but now he was a Christian and was so nice and totally changed for the better. Long story short I found out that he had wanted to take advantage of me. I was so incredibly devastated and hurt. I had thought he loved me. Apparently he didn't. He lied to me and to everyone around me. I also found out I had helped him cheat on his girlfriend... It was a horrid situation. I was so hurt and felt so used. I felt I couldn't even trust my guy friends anymore, because I was so afraid of getting hurt.
Monday and Tuesday I cried and cried. I would be sitting in class and then just burst into tears. Wednesday I was so worn out from crying that I just stayed home from school, and just prayed and prayed that God would get me out of this. Thursday was a little better. I didn't cry, but i still hurt so incredibly bad.Then Friday rolled around.
My youth group and I went to see the movie "To Save A Life" and then afterwards we went back to my church along with another youth group for a worship service. My youth group performed a skit that was just really impacting called the "Everything"- by Lifehouse skit. It was awesome. The worship leader was awesome and the songs really moved me. Then the speaker spoke. He told us the story of David and Bathsheba, using it as an introduction to his testimony. He use to be the type of guy that would say and do anything to get what he wanted from a girl. Then God got a hold of his heart, and totally changed him. As he told his story I just began bawling. It made me think about how hurt I was and how maybe there was hope for the guy who I had almost dated again.
After the speaker gave his testimony we had an invitation time. I somehow ended up at the kneeling rail just bawling my eyes out even more. I started praying, and I felt God's healing hand just start to heal me. Some of my youth group and some adults began to pray over me and I could feel God's loving arms just wrap around me.
After the service I went up to the speaker and just told him everything. I told him about had happened and almost happened. I also told him how I felt that Satan had been using guys to distract me from what God wanted me to do. I told him I was feeling called to ministry in some way. The speaker gave me some really good advice and encouragement and then he prayed over me and gave me a hug. God used him to help me to start to heal from all I was dealing with.The speaker and I have even become pretty good friends now. lol He is an awesome young man and God is going to do great things with him.
After that night I just began to pray that God would help me to just keep myself focused on him, and that I wouldn't be distracted. I began reading a book called " Lady In Waiting". It's about drawing closer to God and becoming the woman God wants a woman to be while she is waiting on "Mr. Right". As I began I felt God tugging on my heart as he had since June to surrender my life to ministry. I started praying about what ministry God wanted for me. I feel God leading me in the direction of youth ministry specifically with tween and teenage girls, but I am still praying about it. So about 3 weeks ago at church I went down the aisle to surrender my life to ministry. I just cannot wait to see how God want to use me in the days ahead!
Monday and Tuesday I cried and cried. I would be sitting in class and then just burst into tears. Wednesday I was so worn out from crying that I just stayed home from school, and just prayed and prayed that God would get me out of this. Thursday was a little better. I didn't cry, but i still hurt so incredibly bad.Then Friday rolled around.
My youth group and I went to see the movie "To Save A Life" and then afterwards we went back to my church along with another youth group for a worship service. My youth group performed a skit that was just really impacting called the "Everything"- by Lifehouse skit. It was awesome. The worship leader was awesome and the songs really moved me. Then the speaker spoke. He told us the story of David and Bathsheba, using it as an introduction to his testimony. He use to be the type of guy that would say and do anything to get what he wanted from a girl. Then God got a hold of his heart, and totally changed him. As he told his story I just began bawling. It made me think about how hurt I was and how maybe there was hope for the guy who I had almost dated again.
After the speaker gave his testimony we had an invitation time. I somehow ended up at the kneeling rail just bawling my eyes out even more. I started praying, and I felt God's healing hand just start to heal me. Some of my youth group and some adults began to pray over me and I could feel God's loving arms just wrap around me.
After the service I went up to the speaker and just told him everything. I told him about had happened and almost happened. I also told him how I felt that Satan had been using guys to distract me from what God wanted me to do. I told him I was feeling called to ministry in some way. The speaker gave me some really good advice and encouragement and then he prayed over me and gave me a hug. God used him to help me to start to heal from all I was dealing with.The speaker and I have even become pretty good friends now. lol He is an awesome young man and God is going to do great things with him.
After that night I just began to pray that God would help me to just keep myself focused on him, and that I wouldn't be distracted. I began reading a book called " Lady In Waiting". It's about drawing closer to God and becoming the woman God wants a woman to be while she is waiting on "Mr. Right". As I began I felt God tugging on my heart as he had since June to surrender my life to ministry. I started praying about what ministry God wanted for me. I feel God leading me in the direction of youth ministry specifically with tween and teenage girls, but I am still praying about it. So about 3 weeks ago at church I went down the aisle to surrender my life to ministry. I just cannot wait to see how God want to use me in the days ahead!
